Playful times
you so resisted
coz for you
responsibility called

You changed your world
so I could have better
You lifted me up
when I was about to falter

You talked some sense into me
when I lacked direction
You showed me what life calls for
now I seem to be ready for it

Now here I am
yearning to make you proud
coz I love you
so much Dad!

-Shwe

P.S : Inspiration from bloowalrus

What happens when you have a surplus of holidays? Ask me. You’ll start trying crazy things. I am singing Tera hone laga hoon(Ajab prem ki gazab kahani) for the nth time. Have you tried singing the first four lines of Chiggy Wiggy from Blue with that flow?

Every Man Who Ever Sees Me Wants To Hold My Hand
And Be The One Who Gets Me To Say Oh I Do
Swear Eternal Undying Devotion Yes They Swear
That They Will Love Me Forever Love Me True

I tried, not successful!!

For the record, I don’t personally prefer watching Akshay Kumar’s performances since somehow they seem repeating(most of them supposedly a laugh riot! But I cant! Well! Laugh) and one major good thing, most of the songs in his films do become a hit. But what striked me in the song – Chiggy Wiggy apart from the attitude was the apparent reverence I have for Kylie Minogue. I love the way she sings “Baby” with an awesome attitude.

I became a fan of Kylie Minogue coz of her uplifting songs and happy-go-lucky numbers which were very easily humm-able. But the reverence increased after I heard about her breast cancer battle. Well, Kudos to anyone who goes through this battle and supposedly comes out of it(Well! here’s the sad news, it usually can have a re-occurrence after a couple of years. So you keep crossing your fingers that you don’t end up getting the chemotherapy doses ever again in your life. Life sucks sometimes! ). I feel happy seeing people who actually come out of this. I am proud of them. There are a lot of factors which do help in the recovery process. The benefit of having caring and selfless family and relatives(Most of the times, you start seeing the true colors of people here! Life is as rosy as you make it to be, life is as cruel as other people make it to be. Isnt it? Its your job to get to see the rosy side.) and friends, the right assistance by the hospital and doctors, the right attitude towards life, the right hands-on information about the disease, the right sense of decision of whether to take a second opinion or whether a test actually determines about the cause, effect or cure. The “Ah! It can’t happen to me, Why will it?” to “Why me!?” to “What did I do wrong in life” to “I have no interest in living” to “I have seen enough in life” to “I can win” pendulum phases are the traumatic and toughest. It takes a lot to win life and win in life. Really happy that these people have the guts to come out and shine on as they always had and much more. Whoa!

I did a little search on Cancer and Cancer survivors. I was overwhelmed by the list.

Lance Armstrong – Fan ever since I read his book – Its not about the bike(Best autobiography apparently – Grab it when you can.)
Paul Allen – Microsoft co-founder, was diagnosed and treated for Hodgkin’s lymphoma in 1983

Nuclear Physicist, Nobel Prize Laureate, Richard P. Feynman’s beloved first wife might have died of this lymphoma disease after all being accidentally, correctly though, diagnosed by a physician in the hospital where she was hospitalized at the time Feynman was working on the Manhattan Project. The featuring doctor curiously matches the “infamous” character moves of Dr. House in the popular TV show going by the same name. (look also for the story in: Surely You’re Joking, Mr. Feynman!) – Ah! I am seeing the references of this book too much lately, I have to read this!! .

http://www.indianexpress.com/pictureStory.php?galId=631&pg=0&view=0
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Cancer_survivors

There would be many many more not listed here!

Here’s food for thought.This might be of little help from this stupid blog.

http://www.cancer.org/docroot/home/index.asp
http://www.cancer.gov/

Locked in this world
hell in heaven
Shining grace but mired gloom

No strings attached
weight less
against gravity

the opposite of reason
not the epitome of logic
yet hardened by emotion

Still seems like a rightful choice
that’s my world
What’s yours?

-Shwe

Mirror mirror on the wall
who’s the luckiest of them all
says the mirror
with a snigger
you ain’t so lucky my gal
fate’s not your pal
damn my fate I say
that should be outta my way

-Shwe

These teardrops

remind me of the

unspoken melody

chain me back to the

memory of the

spoken melancholy

As funny as

desire can be

it twists and turns

you to

things you would

rather let it be

Sometimes it makes

you think

whether you are a

winner at a losing game

or too naive to be

playing at all!

-Shwe

• Poets of the fall – Carnival of Rust

Got introduced to this song by a friend of mine last year.  I don’t get tired of hearing this song endless number of times. Love it for its unusual video too.

• Sean Paul – We’ll be burning

Love this for the beats.

• MGMT – Time to pretend

Started loving this song way too much after I saw the “21″ movie. Love the beats. Though this song is mainly about the rock star life as I assumed, am  still asking the question are we fated to pretend ? That starts another debate! and this is not the original video of this song.

• One Republic – Apologize

Love the simple lyrics and slow drag of the song.

Embedding disabled by request in most of the music videos of this song on youtube so try this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fm0T7_SGee4

• Lady Sovereign  – Love me or hate me

Love this video and the “dont care about you” attitude. The video reminds me of my favorite game on Linux :  ksirtet – Tetris game for KDE . More on that at http://www.penguin-soft.com/penguin/man/6/ksirtet.html and more on KDE, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/KDE

Embedding disabled by request in most of the music videos of this song on youtube so try this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jYrXH2ZbEw4

Stole this idea from Facebook.

1. I am a very bad listener.  “You know Shwetha, I went to this place. .  (I’m lost at this point!) Blah blah. . Blah Blah. . Shwetha, Are you listening ?” I do miss a lot of words sometimes. Sob. Sob.
2. I love going for trips.  Love anything related to nature (had a huge crush on biological names in PU), water, greenery. Ancient temples too.
3. I would rather be non-emotional, bold, daring, funny rather than pretty and worthless.
4. I take the initiative to move forward in any kind of task, but the enthusiasm most of the times dies down halfway. I have to change this . Just a thought : What about this then?  Well begun is half done.
5. I hate people who try to impress others. Lesson learnt : I never would want to be one of them with the fake smiles(Ah! Formality.  Reminds me of office somehow! ) ,  dishonest behavior,  sarcasm and show off.  I  hate getting surrounded by negative-minded people and those who don’t have opinions of their own.  Even hate people who make a fuss to walk just a km. Hate back stabbing from “so-called” friends!
6. I cant say “no” most of the times. Being too  good sometimes can get you! According to one of my friends, being too good isn’t good at all!  and hell yeah!  You cant make “all” the people happy “all”  the time.
7. Red is the color of my nose! Whether angry or sad, sunny or cold, embarrassed or excited.
8. I trust each person a lot most of the times. Maybe its bad, Most of the times!
9. There are certain things I keep personal as well!
10. I love flowers very much,  love writing(scribbling rather) random thoughts which come in this stupid head, love creative and art stuff.
11. People think they know me enough. But I think I don’t know enough of me still!
12. People do come into your life for a reason all the time. Its up to you to take something good out of it.
13. I am very very (superlative degree!) short tempered most of the times. Sometimes can get stubborn, head strong too. Equally sensitive.
14. I will always love my life. Regrets, yeah there are many. Who doesn’t?  Yeah yeah, life is a one way road so no point in regrets! But But. . .
15. I forgive but I never forget.
16. I will lie if it prevents someone from being hurt or makes them smile.
17. I am way too optimistic in life. That is the way to success. Failures and struggles do make you strong. Well, This makes me over ambitious too!
18. I hate people complaining all the time. You must be wondering whether I am a misanthrope. Well! Nah!!
    
19. I love the smell of the mud when the raindrops fall, paint, petrol, the nail polish.
    
20. I don’t believe in Love at first sight. Doesn’t happen in just a sight. Needs much more understanding than that!
    
21. When I am bored at traffic signals(which most of the times I am! ) , I make number patterns of the vehicle registration numbers. Queer isn’t it?!
    
22. I think the best orators are P. Chidambaram and Obama.
    
23. I love eating Ice creams(Got sick of chocolate though), Rose milk and Idli. . Anytime of the day(Correction there! Cant go out for it anytime in the night! )
    
24. I think I am fat.
    
25. I am an ambivert. Love you always will come to you and talk when I want. And I ain’t keeping my mouth shut.
    
26. I have an inherent confidence(over confidence?) that “I am different” and ” I am unique” . I am different. I want to be different , I will be different.  Looks like some freedom slogan. *Sheepish grin* *Wink*.  Sometimes this makes me fight against change!
    
27. I have this habit of correcting people if they make grammatical mistakes(worse even, spelling mistakes). I can’t rest peacefully if I don’t. Also I love words(Maybe the influence of Word power made easy! )
    
28. I love Radio Indigo. Can listen to it endlessly even with the Ads unlike other stations. Don’t like Bollywood equally.  Fed up of  “run-around-the-trees” movies.
    
29. I like anything naive, simple. Sophistication makes you way too complicated.
30. I don’t take everything for granted or ignore the importance of  something. But you should learn the art of prioritizing priorities.  And I am still learning the art of setting priorities.

Sometimes you end up getting crazy mails which you would delete at first notice. However I took the pain of opening this mail and look what I found!(I hate my yahoo mail because of this .  Damn them! . But I did manage a  smile for this one! )

My name is Raj. I work in a software co as a Support Specialist in Bangalore, India. My friends call me A PARTY ANIMAL. During weekends I uasually go to pubs, nite clubs, disco OR go FOR A Long Drive on my bike. I also write some shayaris when I am in good mood

My interests.. Fast Cars, Cool Bikes N Hot Babes.

Interested.. U wanna meet me… Then Decide..

I am waitin

I don’t know what I need to decide! Huh! :O

After the halt(rather pause) of the Orkut frandship messages, people do come back to mails!

My friend put forward this thought.  She was telling me she still did not understand the concept of blogging.  She argued that putting one’s thoughts onto a blog would make all the people know about all her personal feelings and likes, which most of us don’t prefer.  But I argued that all of us aren’t the same.  Just like she never read blogs , there are people exact opposite of her who love reading blogs.  So apparently we agreed to disagree and the argument was amicably resolved.

I completely  accept that I don’t post all my feelings and likes onto my blog.  Well, there are certain limits that I don’t cross either. Then comes  that thought.  Should I be an introvert or an extrovert?

Having had a hard time trying to be a complete introvert,  I  seemed to get back to my old  self.  I used to talk in minimal words just to avoid lengthy conversations.  Just a word or two and no smileys.  Then I realized that I was not meant to be that way. I concluded that I was better off being an ambivert (or partial extrovert) than being the extreme introvert.  Came back to my original self with some experience and  insight. Who would want to miss keeping in touch with friends within the possible limits and the information galore you get with anything under the sun from tech to politics to whose wedding is it next(The wait for the food begins . Ah! Shameless me ) .  After the end of the addictive phase of the chats and the social networking sites, now its the turn of twitter to make me get in touch and keep my virtual world alive.  So much for a thought!

Mission Statement :

Start : June 18 , 2009

Intention : Keep up regularly

1. Stargaze. Learn to identify the different constellations.

2. Blog at least three times a month.

3. Practice guitar regularly. Chords for different songs.

4. Go for more trips and treks and organize the “X B” get-together at least once a year.

5. Learn languages. French, Telugu etc. [Deadline for french - Dec 31, 2009]

6. Watch the movies in the hard drive and get more.

7. Get back to the “Discovery, NGC, Fox History(no more History Channel . Liked this more.), David Blaine shows” mode of watching television.

8. Write lyrics of the favorite songs by listening to them just like the old times(without using Google).

9. Keep taking Smi and Suppi out on a weekend once in a while(Bowling , go-karting etc.).

10. Learn more about photography, take at least one picture a week and organize all my photos, including digital.

11. Build a website from scratch with my own code.

12. Keep up with Politics, Tech, Books, Blogs, F1, Tennis.

13. Watch at least one football game with the intention to understand more about the various rules.

14. Decide about career and/or higher studies.

15. Study the MIT open courses I like. [One course , Deadline : Dec 31, 2009]http://ocw.mit.edu/OcwWeb/web/courses/courses/index.htm

16. Plant a sapling. [Deadline : Aug 20 , 2009]

17. Collect 50 quotes that I like.[1/50]

The best one I like :

“It’s a lonely road for those of us who choose to be remarkable, and the path of convention can sometimes be appealing. That path is paved with safe lives, middle of the road monotony, and little chance of failure. But where’s the fun in being like everyone else out there?” – Chris Guillebeau

18. Read the novels still lying at home and keep getting more.

19. Get back to “putting the long earring” routine.

20. Keep finding blogs/news items which inspire me to excel in life or just makes me happy.

21. Write poetry on various topics.

22. Help mom.One day, make dishes on my own and give her the much needed rest.

23. Just keep my brain working. (Phy,Math, Engi, Quant, DI, Puzzles,Bio, Neurology, Psychology etc. . ).

24. Go for a walk/jog everyday.

25. Make a list of at least 25 best songs I like and blog about them.

26. Keep visiting bookstores and libraries whenever possible.

27. Send an email to people to tell how much they mean to me[2 done] and send a handwritten letter to Anu just like the old times.

28. Explore Bangalore by traveling in a bus.

29. Relive every moment happily, cherish it and value it. Smile more.

30. Don’t eat outside at least for a week once a month. (mom’s food rules! )

31. Go do anything on impulse. (Having Idlis, Ice cream, Rose milk shake(Shopping does not come under this ) )

32. Get drenched in the rain.

33. Say “I trust you” to someone and mean it completely.

34. Create a list of 50 things that makes me happy.

35. Create a list of 50 reasons why I love someone.

36. Volunteer for a cause I really support. [ Deadline : Aug 20 , 2009]

37. Go to courses and add things substantial onto my resume.

38. Play a tennis game sometime and play well in TT by learning the strategies.

39. Learn to wear a Saree to see that smile on dad and mum.

40. Start with a 101 tasks in 1001 days list.

Inspired by : http://instatick.wordpress.com/101-in-1001/